A whole new feeling....

Who would of thought shopping by yourself would feel so abnormal???

After I dropped off my littlest one for his first day of pre-school I went home to first put myself back together after I started to feel myself beginning to fall apart just a little. I made it home, came in and sat down....took a deep breathe in as I listened to absolutely nothing...the silence of a home that is usually filled with sounds of little voices giggling, talking, yelling, asking questions. Sounds that are usually swirling around our home non-stop were now gone.
After 12 years of babies, toddlers, potty training, I have now moved on to the next step. This is huge!
Snap!!! And that little light in my head just got really bright! I picked myself up, cleaned up a little, grabbed my purse and out the door I went. Hmmm, did the front door always open that fast and close that soon after I stepped out of it?? In my car I go, oh and wait, nooo I don't have to look in my mirror to make sure all seat belts are fastened because..... my seat belt was on and that's the only one that was being used!! Okay....so I put on MY music and what the heck? Turn that beat up!!! Hmm, I have a pretty nice stereo!! Stopped to do my first errand, I couldn't believe how fast it went. I had to go to Costco next...pulled in, got out and walked by myself towards the entry. I see a couple get out of their car slowly, the man opens the back door of the car and pulls out a baby carrier. They begin to walk slowly so I walk around the cars and easily pass them up. As I get to the shopping carts I just grab the first one and start to go in. I see other Moms, Dads, Grandparents inspecting the carts before they put their little ones in the seat. In I go zooming through the store, everywhere I look I see kids in the seats, talking, crying, wanting to get out as their parents talk to them. They stop their shopping to take care of them as I continue to walk along getting my items.
At one point I stop and think to myself am I just walking really fast??? I don't think so, I just don't have any reason to stop what I'm doing. Did I ever notice other parents dealing with their children as they are trying to get their shopping done? No, because I was one of them.
So I finished up, made my way to the register. The employees who are use to seeing me there weekly had to look twice with a puzzled look on their face... "aren't you missing someone?". "Pre school" is all I had to say...
Got home in record time!! Put the stuff away and decided to continue with my music fest. Put on the stereo LOUD, as I started to clean up, pick up, and wash I danced from room to room, sang my songs out loud...who knew cleaning up could be so fun???
Of course I kept my eye on the time knowing I'd have to pick up my little one soon. The time came to go get him and as I pulled up to his school...there he stood, my little boy all hot from playing he was lined up like the teacher asked. He started looking around and then he saw me. His little eyes lit up as he came running to me and gave me a big hug!! The best feeling!
Yes I enjoyed my day alone, I got a lot done that otherwise would've taken a lot longer, I danced and sang and even probably smiled as I cleaned (which really who smiles while they're cleaning? not me). When I saw him running to me my heart was once again full of warmth, my baby, now a pre schooler is once again with me. My little partner and I came home as he told me all about his first day. He even got a little surprise waiting for him in the car for having such a great first day. We came in the house, he changed out of his school clothes, had some ice cream, and then he came and sat down by me on the couch and said "Mama all I wanna do is snuggle right here with you cause you are the best Mama in the whole world and I love you with all my heart".
"Okay, my big boy".

A whole new feeling, a new step for this Mom, I'm ready to enjoy this new stage we are heading into with all of our kids in school.