So my Aunts, my Mom, and I have been noticing my Grandma's forgetfulness.............
The funny thing is it's only with certain things, not all things, just some things.............
When my Mom was out of town my Grandma knew exactly when she was gone, had a pretty good idea when she was coming back, and didn't have any issues with remembering any of that.
While my Mom was gone I would make sure to call my Grandma once a day to make sure all was okay even though I knew my Aunts were also around.
My Grandma would seem fine for the most part but there was little signs that would bring up red signs.............
For example, we would be talking for about 10 minutes and she would interrupt and say "um, I'm sorry, who's this? Who am I talking to?" "Grandma, it's me". "oh, yes, yes, sorry of course it's you, do you know when your Mama's coming back?" "Yes, she'll be back next week" "Oh, yes, that's what I thought, I miss her" "yes, I do too Grandma".
My Grandma, she's always been the strength of the family whether she thought it or not....
I have always thought of my Grandma as comfort, as security, as part of the beginning of my family........
Honestly how could I not?? Whenever she had the chance to tell me she would say "You know, this whole family started with me and your Grandpa" "we are the ones who started all of this".
She is right, without her and my Grandpa life as we know it wouldn't have continued............
My Grandfather passed away almost 7 years ago............ever since then my Grandma has continued on by herself with the endless help from my Mom and Aunts..........
Lately it has been quite noticeable that my Grandma has now started to repeat certain things over and over, word for word, and completely unnoticeable to her.....
It has come to our attention that this has more to do with just getting older........... My Mom had a meeting with her doctor and they have come to the conclusion that my Grandmother, the rock of the family, the caretaker of the grand kids (when we were little), the one that had been there through it all is now in a fragile state.
They want to take away her independence, her car, her home, her only way of being............
My Grandmother would never want to be anywhere else than in her home with her dog.........
They now believe my Grandma has Dementia, the same thing my Grandfather had.
It scares me, my last Grand parent, I remember how fast my Grandfather went, no my Grandma isn't anywhere near the place my Grandfather was but still the thoughts go through my mind and even though we always have that cushion in the back of our minds to help prepare us for these moments it just still is not enough.....
My Grandma, today we were told, without an actual diagnosis but just by what has been said of the actions that have been shown by you, you seem to have Dementia.
My Grandma, the core of the family, the strength from what I know.............I will be here for whatever you need, for whatever help my Mom needs, I love you, you have always been there as I will always be here for you.
My Mom says not to worry, Grandma will be okay for now...................I'll try, honestly, I will be thinking a lot about you............
Just a Mom...............praying for my Grandma.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Monday, Monday
The weather has now turned.....................the triple digits we were feeling have now dropped by 20 degrees...
The kids still wore their shorts and shirts to school (which I would think they are going to wear until they absolutely have to stop).
Monday, was nice, Grandma came over to stay with Squiggly and J while I went to pick the kids up, came home, kids did homework, Mom Jr. went to dance, Daddy and D finished their science project for school. The a/c was off finally!!!
Tuesday comes along, there's a breeze early in the morning when Daddy is getting up for work....
As the kids get up for school they notice the breeze but still insist on wearing shorts and shirts.
I get them off to school and J and I hit the stores for veggies, fruits, school items, and groceries for the rest of the week. We even stopped and picked up new movies for them to watch...
We got home in time for J to clean up his toys as I put stuff away and cleaned up as well...
I made J lunch and continued cleaning up. Soon I turned to notice J was curled up in a ball asleep. I figured "okay, I'll let him take a nap for now before we have to go pick up the kids from school. I continued on with my endless laundry.
Time came for us to go and J was still asleep. I turned everything off and picked him up and put him in the car with a blanket covering him as it was very windy.....
We get to the school and J is now awake. He jumps out of his seat and tells me he has to pee. We park across a big grass field and by the way he was acting I knew for a fact he wouldn't make it to the school bathrooms AND to make it even worse he had no shoes on!! (now, there is no way I am going to let any of my children walk into a school or any public restroom without shoes on their feet!!).
Quickly my mind starts running, flashbacks of movies pop in my head of kids peeing in take out cups, water bottles......um, no I don't have any of those items in my vehicle..............
Then I remembered an episode of "Oprah"....one about Mom's and the things they do............one Mom was driving a long distance with her kids who talked most of the way and when they finally fell asleep and the drive was finally quiet she ended up having to pee really bad. She had a choice, either pull over into a gas station, wake the kids up so that she could pee.................or.............grab a diaper that she had for one of her kids and use it for herself, therefore not disturbing the peace by waking up her kids and being able to continue her drive in silence.
So she did just that, she used the diaper on herself...kids slept, she relieved herself, the trip ended on a good note......................
I start looking around in my vehicle for a diaper knowing I probably have one for an emergency such as this (although I thought the emergency would've been for Squiggly).
Oh! I found one..........I jump out of the front seat, open the door to the back J is standing there, I grab the diaper and open it. "Let's pull your pants down but hold it until I tell you" "Kay Mama but I have to pee!!". I quickly open the diaper, "okay" J proceeds to pee....................
Okay, woman who used a diaper to relieve herself...........either your kids wear Depends or you just have a completely weak bladder because my 3 year old son filled the diaper to the point where it even overflowed down his legs and onto his underwear and shorts!!!
Luckily I brought the blanket to cover him with since he was asleep when we left. When he was done I cleaned up the mess, wrapped him up in the blanket which he now looked like a sumo wrestler sitting in his seat waiting for his brothers and sister.
I was just hoping the kids would remember what I told them if they didn't see me waiting by their classrooms.
Thank God, they did. They came walking over to the car..........
Just a Mom never knowing there was actually something she hadn't experienced before.........
The kids still wore their shorts and shirts to school (which I would think they are going to wear until they absolutely have to stop).
Monday, was nice, Grandma came over to stay with Squiggly and J while I went to pick the kids up, came home, kids did homework, Mom Jr. went to dance, Daddy and D finished their science project for school. The a/c was off finally!!!
Tuesday comes along, there's a breeze early in the morning when Daddy is getting up for work....
As the kids get up for school they notice the breeze but still insist on wearing shorts and shirts.
I get them off to school and J and I hit the stores for veggies, fruits, school items, and groceries for the rest of the week. We even stopped and picked up new movies for them to watch...
We got home in time for J to clean up his toys as I put stuff away and cleaned up as well...
I made J lunch and continued cleaning up. Soon I turned to notice J was curled up in a ball asleep. I figured "okay, I'll let him take a nap for now before we have to go pick up the kids from school. I continued on with my endless laundry.
Time came for us to go and J was still asleep. I turned everything off and picked him up and put him in the car with a blanket covering him as it was very windy.....
We get to the school and J is now awake. He jumps out of his seat and tells me he has to pee. We park across a big grass field and by the way he was acting I knew for a fact he wouldn't make it to the school bathrooms AND to make it even worse he had no shoes on!! (now, there is no way I am going to let any of my children walk into a school or any public restroom without shoes on their feet!!).
Quickly my mind starts running, flashbacks of movies pop in my head of kids peeing in take out cups, water bottles......um, no I don't have any of those items in my vehicle..............
Then I remembered an episode of "Oprah"....one about Mom's and the things they do............one Mom was driving a long distance with her kids who talked most of the way and when they finally fell asleep and the drive was finally quiet she ended up having to pee really bad. She had a choice, either pull over into a gas station, wake the kids up so that she could pee.................or.............grab a diaper that she had for one of her kids and use it for herself, therefore not disturbing the peace by waking up her kids and being able to continue her drive in silence.
So she did just that, she used the diaper on herself...kids slept, she relieved herself, the trip ended on a good note......................
I start looking around in my vehicle for a diaper knowing I probably have one for an emergency such as this (although I thought the emergency would've been for Squiggly).
Oh! I found one..........I jump out of the front seat, open the door to the back J is standing there, I grab the diaper and open it. "Let's pull your pants down but hold it until I tell you" "Kay Mama but I have to pee!!". I quickly open the diaper, "okay" J proceeds to pee....................
Okay, woman who used a diaper to relieve herself...........either your kids wear Depends or you just have a completely weak bladder because my 3 year old son filled the diaper to the point where it even overflowed down his legs and onto his underwear and shorts!!!
Luckily I brought the blanket to cover him with since he was asleep when we left. When he was done I cleaned up the mess, wrapped him up in the blanket which he now looked like a sumo wrestler sitting in his seat waiting for his brothers and sister.
I was just hoping the kids would remember what I told them if they didn't see me waiting by their classrooms.
Thank God, they did. They came walking over to the car..........
Just a Mom never knowing there was actually something she hadn't experienced before.........
Change of Seasons??
Exactly like day and night?! No kidding, one day we're unbelievably hot in the triple digits playing soccer...so hot the sunblock I put on in the morning was no longer in effect by the time we started our last soccer game...came home, felt a little sting and no it wasn't because we lost the game, in fact we won!!!! Jr. even scored a goal!!!!
Actually the sting was from a sunburn I got from watching (and of course yelling) at our last game.
Sunday came around, still feeling the sting....Mom Jr. and I went with some friends to go watch "Fame". A movie all about performing arts. Mom Jr. loved it (as I figured she would)... It was actually nice. I have a hard time leaving my family to go out and enjoy myself doing something that I know they'd all like to do. I actually had to talk myself into not feeling guilty about going to the movies (even though I wasn't going by myself I still was taking my daughter).
I made a good breakfast for everyone, went to the store to get anything they needed for a project Daddy was helping D finish for school.
And the really BIG thing I did was...............................I graduated!!!!!
I actually bought myself a........wait....are you ready for this???
I bought myself a...................................................PURSE!!!!!
I know, completely crazy!?!?!? Right??? I mean, I am a woman who has a wallet and other items to hold onto......my last child is now 3 who doesn't need me to carry baby items.........
Let me just say it has been 10 years since I have carried a purse!!! Yes, 10 YEARS!!!! So long that I couldn't even choose one, I felt like I didn't know what was cute or "in"...Of course I didn't go out and get some name brand purse that cost an unbelievable amount for me just to carry items in that I would eventually lay in shopping carts, on the floor of places, on the floor in the car where everyone steps.............sorry, no I am not that into the "name" of an item just yet to throw a couple of hundred dollars out just to get dirt on.........
I had Mom Jr. with me, she chose it, I agreed and we were on our way out. We actually checked out of the store with my Sister.....she too was surprised that I was actually transitioning from the small baby bag to an actual purse....she also gave it the okay.
I told her "If it was up to me I would've got something smaller" My sister said "Okay, wait, there is no way I am going to let you get a fanny pack!". "What?!?! No, I would not get one of those!!! I meant just a smaller purse".
Glad to know at least my Sister would stop me from making a fool out of myself (that's if I ever completely lost my mind!!!).
So yes, now I am trying to get use to actually carrying a purse rather than a baby bag...infact just today I was rushing out the door to pick the kids up from school. I threw my phone in the pocket and darted towards the door with Squiggly on one hip and my bag on the other shoulder......
As I passed the table by the door I noticed my "new" purse with all my necessities in it. I said out loud "Old habits die hard that's for sure". I grabbed my phone, dropped it in my purse and out we went..........
10 years..................who I was then to who I am now..........independent to a dependent of 4...like I said it's crazy how much is lost of oneself...
Just a Mom.....................transitioning
Actually the sting was from a sunburn I got from watching (and of course yelling) at our last game.
Sunday came around, still feeling the sting....Mom Jr. and I went with some friends to go watch "Fame". A movie all about performing arts. Mom Jr. loved it (as I figured she would)... It was actually nice. I have a hard time leaving my family to go out and enjoy myself doing something that I know they'd all like to do. I actually had to talk myself into not feeling guilty about going to the movies (even though I wasn't going by myself I still was taking my daughter).
I made a good breakfast for everyone, went to the store to get anything they needed for a project Daddy was helping D finish for school.
And the really BIG thing I did was...............................I graduated!!!!!
I actually bought myself a........wait....are you ready for this???
I bought myself a...................................................PURSE!!!!!
I know, completely crazy!?!?!? Right??? I mean, I am a woman who has a wallet and other items to hold onto......my last child is now 3 who doesn't need me to carry baby items.........
Let me just say it has been 10 years since I have carried a purse!!! Yes, 10 YEARS!!!! So long that I couldn't even choose one, I felt like I didn't know what was cute or "in"...Of course I didn't go out and get some name brand purse that cost an unbelievable amount for me just to carry items in that I would eventually lay in shopping carts, on the floor of places, on the floor in the car where everyone steps.............sorry, no I am not that into the "name" of an item just yet to throw a couple of hundred dollars out just to get dirt on.........
I had Mom Jr. with me, she chose it, I agreed and we were on our way out. We actually checked out of the store with my Sister.....she too was surprised that I was actually transitioning from the small baby bag to an actual purse....she also gave it the okay.
I told her "If it was up to me I would've got something smaller" My sister said "Okay, wait, there is no way I am going to let you get a fanny pack!". "What?!?! No, I would not get one of those!!! I meant just a smaller purse".
Glad to know at least my Sister would stop me from making a fool out of myself (that's if I ever completely lost my mind!!!).
So yes, now I am trying to get use to actually carrying a purse rather than a baby bag...infact just today I was rushing out the door to pick the kids up from school. I threw my phone in the pocket and darted towards the door with Squiggly on one hip and my bag on the other shoulder......
As I passed the table by the door I noticed my "new" purse with all my necessities in it. I said out loud "Old habits die hard that's for sure". I grabbed my phone, dropped it in my purse and out we went..........
10 years..................who I was then to who I am now..........independent to a dependent of 4...like I said it's crazy how much is lost of oneself...
Just a Mom.....................transitioning
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Whooosh!!!
Is all I can say about the time between my last post to this one. Life has been unbelievably busy...
With school, Grandparents Day, Jr.'s birthday, Daddy's birthday, 4 soccer practices a week, back and forth to dance three days a week, 3 soccer games on the weekend, soccer pictures............ugh, just typing it all out is exhausting not to mention just the usual- taking care of squiggly who now is a full time crawler on the brink of walking.
You know Moms shes at the stage of pulling herself up and walking along anything she can hang on. Yes, I know it's only a matter of time when she decides to let go and take those first steps all on her own. I just hope she does it when she's with her Mom. I don't want to not tell her if she does it with me first because as a Mom I'd like to know....on the other hand............I know she'll be sad.................hmmmm, we'll see.
J is just as feisty as ever, that boy, I'm preparing school lunches for the other 3 as they're getting ready for school. J walks in the kitchen wearing rain boots shorts, tank top, and 2 hats. "Mama, it gonna rain?" "no, infact it's going to be very hot today" "Oh, I gonna go camping den Mama" "Open back door fo me pleeessse" "okay". The sprinklers are on in the back and one of our big floating toys for the pool was laying across the rail of the bridge leading from the cement to the grass.
J went out there and was pretending that was his house as he was camping (see my kids have never been camping so what they see on TV about it is what they know). I continued making lunches as the other 3 were now downstairs putting on shoes, fixing their hair, getting their backpacks together.
J comes back in the house "I back Mama" "Did you have fun?" "Um, sure Mama, I got a little wet" "Oh, well go take off your rain boots and put on your flip flops so we can leave" "aaaaahhhhh, I want to wear my boots, I gonna go back out".
J has learned quite well from his brothers how to pout, he hunches over as he walks away practically falling to his knees. By this time I'm too busy to let it bother me as I'm spraying sun block on the others and fixing Mom Jr.'s hair to the style she has requested for the day.
We get in the car, make it to school, watch their morning opening, and go about our day...
Today was actually the first day I was able to come straight home and stay here until I had to go out and get the kids. My mind has been on overload lately with all the unfinished business around here. So now I was on fire!!!
It took me 3 hours to just clean the downstairs and even then I didn't completely clean the bathroom. I took a break to serve lunch to J and me and then I got right back up to start preparing dinner.
Right when I finished it was time to head out to pick up the kids, come home, get Mom Jr. ready for dance, Daddy came home, and Mom Jr. and I are out............
Never ending, the sun rises and I'm already downstairs preparing lunch, the sun sets and I'm out picking someone up...........
This is when I myself am truly lost................no time to worry about that anyway I'm too busy with everything else. Good thing about being busy I don't feel the loss..........until I take the time to think about all that I've done and it's for her, for him, for him, for him, and for him..........um, and then I notice what's for me???
Someday I'll arrive, someday I will be important, someday they will stop, appreciate, and really understand all that I do for them......
Until then.................
Just a Mom on the go.......................................completely for them.
With school, Grandparents Day, Jr.'s birthday, Daddy's birthday, 4 soccer practices a week, back and forth to dance three days a week, 3 soccer games on the weekend, soccer pictures............ugh, just typing it all out is exhausting not to mention just the usual- taking care of squiggly who now is a full time crawler on the brink of walking.
You know Moms shes at the stage of pulling herself up and walking along anything she can hang on. Yes, I know it's only a matter of time when she decides to let go and take those first steps all on her own. I just hope she does it when she's with her Mom. I don't want to not tell her if she does it with me first because as a Mom I'd like to know....on the other hand............I know she'll be sad.................hmmmm, we'll see.
J is just as feisty as ever, that boy, I'm preparing school lunches for the other 3 as they're getting ready for school. J walks in the kitchen wearing rain boots shorts, tank top, and 2 hats. "Mama, it gonna rain?" "no, infact it's going to be very hot today" "Oh, I gonna go camping den Mama" "Open back door fo me pleeessse" "okay". The sprinklers are on in the back and one of our big floating toys for the pool was laying across the rail of the bridge leading from the cement to the grass.
J went out there and was pretending that was his house as he was camping (see my kids have never been camping so what they see on TV about it is what they know). I continued making lunches as the other 3 were now downstairs putting on shoes, fixing their hair, getting their backpacks together.
J comes back in the house "I back Mama" "Did you have fun?" "Um, sure Mama, I got a little wet" "Oh, well go take off your rain boots and put on your flip flops so we can leave" "aaaaahhhhh, I want to wear my boots, I gonna go back out".
J has learned quite well from his brothers how to pout, he hunches over as he walks away practically falling to his knees. By this time I'm too busy to let it bother me as I'm spraying sun block on the others and fixing Mom Jr.'s hair to the style she has requested for the day.
We get in the car, make it to school, watch their morning opening, and go about our day...
Today was actually the first day I was able to come straight home and stay here until I had to go out and get the kids. My mind has been on overload lately with all the unfinished business around here. So now I was on fire!!!
It took me 3 hours to just clean the downstairs and even then I didn't completely clean the bathroom. I took a break to serve lunch to J and me and then I got right back up to start preparing dinner.
Right when I finished it was time to head out to pick up the kids, come home, get Mom Jr. ready for dance, Daddy came home, and Mom Jr. and I are out............
Never ending, the sun rises and I'm already downstairs preparing lunch, the sun sets and I'm out picking someone up...........
This is when I myself am truly lost................no time to worry about that anyway I'm too busy with everything else. Good thing about being busy I don't feel the loss..........until I take the time to think about all that I've done and it's for her, for him, for him, for him, and for him..........um, and then I notice what's for me???
Someday I'll arrive, someday I will be important, someday they will stop, appreciate, and really understand all that I do for them......
Until then.................
Just a Mom on the go.......................................completely for them.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Hello???
How time flies when you're looking the other way!!!
Wow, this has been the longest time I've been away from my blog...and let me say I can tell, I feel the words of different situations zooming around in my head. If only at the times I had these thoughts I had something to put them down on. Now that all activities are in full swing I'm running from one place to another and when I'm not I'm trying to catch up on the endless deeds that need to be done.....
Well, my Mom is back, and the only way I can explain how happy that makes me is imagine yourself in the most peaceful, relaxful place. There you stand with a smile on your face and you take in a nice deep breath......ooooh, how good the nice cool air makes you feel going in and even coming out. It's exactly what you need, just to make the sun shine a little brighter on you............
That's how I felt when I woke up in the morning knowing my Mom was back at home. Welcome back Mom, oh how we missed you!!!!
Everyday we get up we go about our daily lives, we have our routines, the day begins and ends, and life as we know it pretty much follows along just as usual..........
Today is Jr.'s Birthday, my oldest son is now 9 years old. I don't know why but this Birthday was an exciting one for him. Last night he came to me and said "my stomach feels weird" "why? are you feeling sick?" "no, I just can't believe this is the last night I will be 8 years old" "that's right, by the time you wake up tomorrow you'll already be 9 years old". He had this big smile on his face and he just kind of floated away...
I am always telling my kids to enjoy the age that they are because once it's gone it will never come back around. I guess my words are sinking in if Jr. couldn't stop thinking about not being 8 anymore.
I get up in the morning, grab a cup of coffee and lean against some pillows on the couch as I watch the news trying to wake up..
Jr. comes down stairs and makes his way over to the other side of the couch. "Happy Birthday" "thank you". There on the couch we both just lay there in the dark staring at the T.V.
Once the sun starts to makes its way in the house D and J find their way over to the couch. I'm now up and making lunch. D is playing a game on the DS Jr. asks him "you want me to help you?" "mmmm, nah" "you should let me help you after all it is my Birthday" "Oh, ya! Happy Birthday, here you go".
I put cereal out for breakfast after I finished making lunch. Mom Jr. has gotten up and is now in the shower, great, that means I'm going to miss taking mine ......... I thought missing shower days ended when they were babies...........hmmm, kinda looks like that time is coming back around again.
Mom Jr. finally makes it downstairs just in time to have breakfast and get ready to go. "Why are we leaving so early?" "We have to stop and get doughnuts for Jr.'s class" "oh, yeah, I forgot Happy Birthday".
We make it out of the house in time to get the doughnuts.
We end up buying out the rest of the glaze, some of the chocolate, and maple. The lady asked "what's the occasion?" "It's his 9th birthday, these are for him to share with his class". "Oh, Happy Birthday, here you can have this sprinkle one for your birthday". "Thank you".
J starts to cry as we're getting in the car "I want a doughnut" "you'll get one as soon as we get to the school".
Morning opening starts at their school. This is when all the kids stand with their classmates all around in the quad area. One class stands up on the stage, leads in the Pledge of Allegiance, sings a patriotic song, calls up anyone who has a Birthday, and they do an exercise to start the day.
I see Jr. making his way to the stage for his Birthday. In my mind I replay the past years I've seen him go up since he was in first grade. I remember the first time just hoping he would do it. He was so little making his way that first year.....
Now he's tall, I still see that little boy in his face, that smile with his little dimples, the way his eyes look like they're smiling too.......
He now is in front of the microphone, a little girl asks him his name and age, he has to bend down to answer her which he does and as he answers her his whole class starts to yell for him. He turns to look towards them, smiles and points their way........
I look at him and can see him in high school as they call his jersey number for basketball, football, baseball, which ever sport he desires to play and can hear the screams he'll receive from the stands....................
There I'll be, proud as ever, holding back the tears of my first born boy who will be a powerhouse no doubt!!!
The school is now singing Happy Birthday to all those who have a birthday, of course, I don't notice anyone else but my son. Mom Jr. and her friends are in front of me and when it comes to the point in the song to say a name her friends and her scream his name.
I'm glad to have my sun glasses on because of course I can feel my eyes getting watery. Does this happen with each year? Or am I just a sap??? I am very emotional when it comes to my kids. I have to be there when they are each playing soccer. If one of their games overlap with another I have to have my Mom at one of them at all times as I run back and forth to each game.
When I leave Mom Jr. at dance I only leave her long enough for me to get dinner started or to spend half the time with the boys at practice. I have to make sure they all know I will be there.
Jr. is enjoying his birthday, he makes sure to not only share the doughnuts with the class but with his teacher and makes sure to give one to the other 4th grade teacher.
I made sure to make exactly what he wanted for dinner. Grandma really made his day when she gave him exactly what he wanted for his birthday.
I managed to make it to Mom Jr.'s soccer practice, pass out information to the parents, came home with the boys, ran a mile and a half, and made dinner.
Jr. came home, took his shower and immediately started working with his gift from Grandma...
The day has now come to an end.........the kids said good night and started making their way back upstairs to bed. Jr. came over to me and said "I don't want my birthday to end" "Don't worry you now have a new birth year to enjoy before the next birthday arrives" "oh, yeah!! Thanks Mom! Good night".
My littlest baby, weighing in at 7 pounds, 4 ounces. When I arrived at the hospital I was asking for an epidural. I must've had a new nurse cause she was nervous about everything. The doctor came in and said it was fine to go ahead and give me the epidural. The nurse took so long Jr. wasn't going to wait anymore.
I told my husband "I have to push". He looked "Um, someone better get in here, he's coming". The nurse ran in "close her legs!" as her and another nurse pushed my whole bed into the delivery room.
The doctor got in there just in time before Jr. came out screaming.
My Mom didn't even realize I had him. She was with Mom Jr. and my Sister worrying because this new nurse made her think something was wrong..
Daddy cut the chord, and there was our first little boy. Tiny as he was, at least to us, his little face with this big mouth.
I just layed there, Daddy walked out to tell my Mom. She came in right away "Hi mijo" is what she said when she saw him, her first grand baby boy.
I looked at him and thought "wow, he's small, his little head, and wait, wow, he has a big mouth!!! He looks like Mick Jagger!!!
Well, that was then, my scrawny baby boy with the big mouth!!
Thank goodness his body caught up with his mouth!!
Jr. my boy, with the sensitive soul, the smile that melts your heart, the happy eyes, the silly sense of humor.................
Happy Birthday Jr. you are a dream come true, you are exactly what your Father has wished for, you are amazing, full of promise, joy, love, determination to be the best at whatever you set your mind to...
My little boy, I hope and pray, life will always be beautiful for you....
Happy 9th Birthday Jr. may your 9th year be exactly what you want it to be as I will be there with you to record all the memories.......I LOVE YOU.....
Just a Mom looking back at my boys first 9 years and looking forward to the next.....................
Wow, this has been the longest time I've been away from my blog...and let me say I can tell, I feel the words of different situations zooming around in my head. If only at the times I had these thoughts I had something to put them down on. Now that all activities are in full swing I'm running from one place to another and when I'm not I'm trying to catch up on the endless deeds that need to be done.....
Well, my Mom is back, and the only way I can explain how happy that makes me is imagine yourself in the most peaceful, relaxful place. There you stand with a smile on your face and you take in a nice deep breath......ooooh, how good the nice cool air makes you feel going in and even coming out. It's exactly what you need, just to make the sun shine a little brighter on you............
That's how I felt when I woke up in the morning knowing my Mom was back at home. Welcome back Mom, oh how we missed you!!!!
Everyday we get up we go about our daily lives, we have our routines, the day begins and ends, and life as we know it pretty much follows along just as usual..........
Today is Jr.'s Birthday, my oldest son is now 9 years old. I don't know why but this Birthday was an exciting one for him. Last night he came to me and said "my stomach feels weird" "why? are you feeling sick?" "no, I just can't believe this is the last night I will be 8 years old" "that's right, by the time you wake up tomorrow you'll already be 9 years old". He had this big smile on his face and he just kind of floated away...
I am always telling my kids to enjoy the age that they are because once it's gone it will never come back around. I guess my words are sinking in if Jr. couldn't stop thinking about not being 8 anymore.
I get up in the morning, grab a cup of coffee and lean against some pillows on the couch as I watch the news trying to wake up..
Jr. comes down stairs and makes his way over to the other side of the couch. "Happy Birthday" "thank you". There on the couch we both just lay there in the dark staring at the T.V.
Once the sun starts to makes its way in the house D and J find their way over to the couch. I'm now up and making lunch. D is playing a game on the DS Jr. asks him "you want me to help you?" "mmmm, nah" "you should let me help you after all it is my Birthday" "Oh, ya! Happy Birthday, here you go".
I put cereal out for breakfast after I finished making lunch. Mom Jr. has gotten up and is now in the shower, great, that means I'm going to miss taking mine ......... I thought missing shower days ended when they were babies...........hmmm, kinda looks like that time is coming back around again.
Mom Jr. finally makes it downstairs just in time to have breakfast and get ready to go. "Why are we leaving so early?" "We have to stop and get doughnuts for Jr.'s class" "oh, yeah, I forgot Happy Birthday".
We make it out of the house in time to get the doughnuts.
We end up buying out the rest of the glaze, some of the chocolate, and maple. The lady asked "what's the occasion?" "It's his 9th birthday, these are for him to share with his class". "Oh, Happy Birthday, here you can have this sprinkle one for your birthday". "Thank you".
J starts to cry as we're getting in the car "I want a doughnut" "you'll get one as soon as we get to the school".
Morning opening starts at their school. This is when all the kids stand with their classmates all around in the quad area. One class stands up on the stage, leads in the Pledge of Allegiance, sings a patriotic song, calls up anyone who has a Birthday, and they do an exercise to start the day.
I see Jr. making his way to the stage for his Birthday. In my mind I replay the past years I've seen him go up since he was in first grade. I remember the first time just hoping he would do it. He was so little making his way that first year.....
Now he's tall, I still see that little boy in his face, that smile with his little dimples, the way his eyes look like they're smiling too.......
He now is in front of the microphone, a little girl asks him his name and age, he has to bend down to answer her which he does and as he answers her his whole class starts to yell for him. He turns to look towards them, smiles and points their way........
I look at him and can see him in high school as they call his jersey number for basketball, football, baseball, which ever sport he desires to play and can hear the screams he'll receive from the stands....................
There I'll be, proud as ever, holding back the tears of my first born boy who will be a powerhouse no doubt!!!
The school is now singing Happy Birthday to all those who have a birthday, of course, I don't notice anyone else but my son. Mom Jr. and her friends are in front of me and when it comes to the point in the song to say a name her friends and her scream his name.
I'm glad to have my sun glasses on because of course I can feel my eyes getting watery. Does this happen with each year? Or am I just a sap??? I am very emotional when it comes to my kids. I have to be there when they are each playing soccer. If one of their games overlap with another I have to have my Mom at one of them at all times as I run back and forth to each game.
When I leave Mom Jr. at dance I only leave her long enough for me to get dinner started or to spend half the time with the boys at practice. I have to make sure they all know I will be there.
Jr. is enjoying his birthday, he makes sure to not only share the doughnuts with the class but with his teacher and makes sure to give one to the other 4th grade teacher.
I made sure to make exactly what he wanted for dinner. Grandma really made his day when she gave him exactly what he wanted for his birthday.
I managed to make it to Mom Jr.'s soccer practice, pass out information to the parents, came home with the boys, ran a mile and a half, and made dinner.
Jr. came home, took his shower and immediately started working with his gift from Grandma...
The day has now come to an end.........the kids said good night and started making their way back upstairs to bed. Jr. came over to me and said "I don't want my birthday to end" "Don't worry you now have a new birth year to enjoy before the next birthday arrives" "oh, yeah!! Thanks Mom! Good night".
My littlest baby, weighing in at 7 pounds, 4 ounces. When I arrived at the hospital I was asking for an epidural. I must've had a new nurse cause she was nervous about everything. The doctor came in and said it was fine to go ahead and give me the epidural. The nurse took so long Jr. wasn't going to wait anymore.
I told my husband "I have to push". He looked "Um, someone better get in here, he's coming". The nurse ran in "close her legs!" as her and another nurse pushed my whole bed into the delivery room.
The doctor got in there just in time before Jr. came out screaming.
My Mom didn't even realize I had him. She was with Mom Jr. and my Sister worrying because this new nurse made her think something was wrong..
Daddy cut the chord, and there was our first little boy. Tiny as he was, at least to us, his little face with this big mouth.
I just layed there, Daddy walked out to tell my Mom. She came in right away "Hi mijo" is what she said when she saw him, her first grand baby boy.
I looked at him and thought "wow, he's small, his little head, and wait, wow, he has a big mouth!!! He looks like Mick Jagger!!!
Well, that was then, my scrawny baby boy with the big mouth!!
Thank goodness his body caught up with his mouth!!
Jr. my boy, with the sensitive soul, the smile that melts your heart, the happy eyes, the silly sense of humor.................
Happy Birthday Jr. you are a dream come true, you are exactly what your Father has wished for, you are amazing, full of promise, joy, love, determination to be the best at whatever you set your mind to...
My little boy, I hope and pray, life will always be beautiful for you....
Happy 9th Birthday Jr. may your 9th year be exactly what you want it to be as I will be there with you to record all the memories.......I LOVE YOU.....
Just a Mom looking back at my boys first 9 years and looking forward to the next.....................
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
It just keeps on rollin' on............
and on and on and on.....Now that the days are getting busier and slowly getting shorter our activities that have just begun are definitely filling in any free time that we did have.
This week, though it began a day late because Monday was a holiday has been on a continuous roll.
It started off Tuesday, back to school, back to work, and wait no, we didn't drive to school, the kids rode their bikes and I ran pushing J. See we would've normally taken the SUV but due to the fact that Daddy's tires were not only bald on his truck one of the tires had some type of nail stuck in it.
Of course by the time we got around to calling anywhere it was too late to get them done before he went back. He said "I can still drive it" "um, no I don't think so, if that tire blows on the freeway that would not be a good thing!". So, I waved good bye to my trusty transportation for the kids and me and said hello to the bikes, jogging stroller, and my running shoes!
Tuesday morning, we get up and get out. I'm still sore from Sunday but I can do this!! It's not so bad, the air is cool while the sun is bright, I have my trusty ipod on with some upbeat music to push me right along. Okay, yes I did walk a little but hey, it's not like I've been running a lot lately!!
We all make it to school in plenty of time for me to help Jr. put some gel in his hair to spike it after wearing his bike helmet and put Mom Jr.'s hair in a pony as her friends watch on waiting to walk off with her.
D handed over his safety gear after locking up his bike and walked off to class, and little J, well he was just fine eating his dry cereal in a baggie with his water right next to him..
On the way home I run/walk again. We come in and I start to pick up a little and start to get ready to take the truck in for new tires. Ugh, walking up the stairs is starting to get a little hard, the soreness I had before was light but now my knee is hurting and I can feel the burn in my thighs. We get ready and get in the truck that I'm a little hesitant about driving anywhere! I don't like driving on bald tires let alone with a nail stuck in one of them. I strap J in nice and tight and proceed to drive slowly. You know how you would normally get stuck behind that one person who is going maybe 20 mph on a 35 mph....well, that was me.
See, in my mind I thought okay, if I drive slowly and very carefully maybe my chances of it popping are less, I won't hit any bumps on the rode quickly therefore the truck won't hit hard. Besides it's mid morning on a week day in a mostly residential area (thank goodness, the place I was going to wasn't in the middle of the town but more out on the side). People driving around at that time during the week in this area are either elderly or stay at home parents, and the occasional high school or college student.
J and I cautiously pull into the parking lot of the tire shop and I breathe a sigh of relief, whoooh!
Go in, of course they don't have the tires I need on hand, they'd have to be ordered...which would mean more running/bike riding.............now first of all, our weather is heating up the rest of the week, second of all the soreness was stepping up a level, not to mention Squiggly would be joining in on the ride and as light as she is it would definitely not be good for her.
"How did I know you were going to say that?" "Let me call my husband and see what he wants to do"..
Turns out they had some there that were comparable to what he wanted. "We'll take them!".
J and I walk to the Dollar Store to waste some time. We come out spending
$8.00 on 2 Dora bowls, 3 boxes a character sandwich baggies, 1 box of snack baggies, a Diet Dr. Pepper for me, and a fire fighter hat for J. "Mama I need dat hat cause when I gow up I gonna be a fiwe fighter" "Okay, which one, the red one or yellow?" "mmmm, I like the wed one""Thank you Mama!".
We walk back to the tire shop and now that J has on his fire fighter hat he feels empowered to put his hand out to cars passing by "Top!! I'm a fiwe fighter!!" He was happy as can be with that hat!
We're just in time, tires on, trucks done, and now it's safe!!
We make it back home just in time to have lunch. By now I feel like I'm so sore I'm starting to walk funny, not good...
Time to go, back in the stroller, off to pick them up at school. I run partially again, feeling a little more energetic now that I ate. We get there and turn around to come back home. We take the bike path just because I don't have to worry about crossing streets or having the kids ride on the side of the street because people are walking on the sidewalk.
We get on the path, it's hot, the breeze is gone, and they just re-did the bike path with what looks like black tar...
Ugh, J is asleep, I am trying to run, I'm hot and tired, I even try to walk fast but I just felt like I wasn't walking fast enough.
Eventually we make it home, kids start their homework, I jump on the computer to get the paperwork needed to pass out at our soccer practice...
Get to practice, talk to the parents, pass out papers, keep an eye on the boys........
Get home, put dinner in the oven, get the kids in the shower, feed them, have them read and then to bed, start cleaning up the kitchen just enough so that the counters are cleaned off, make lunch for Daddy, and prepare the kids water bottles for the next day of school.......
Ugh, never ending, I take my sore self up the stairs to bed knowing there is still so much for me to do, paperwork needed for our boys soccer team, finishing cleaning up in the kitchen, toys that need to be picked up, clothes that need to folded that are in the dryer..............on and on and on.
The days over, time to rest, what isn't done today can be taken care of tomorrow.
Wednesday isn't any easier, Squiggly shows up with a cold so my attention is fully on her, dishes stay where they are, toys remain scattered around plus the new ones J has decided to take out, Mom Jr. starts dance after school...
Again night is here another busy day gone, everyone is finally asleep...................until tomorrow where we'll begin all over again.
Just a Mom............................
This week, though it began a day late because Monday was a holiday has been on a continuous roll.
It started off Tuesday, back to school, back to work, and wait no, we didn't drive to school, the kids rode their bikes and I ran pushing J. See we would've normally taken the SUV but due to the fact that Daddy's tires were not only bald on his truck one of the tires had some type of nail stuck in it.
Of course by the time we got around to calling anywhere it was too late to get them done before he went back. He said "I can still drive it" "um, no I don't think so, if that tire blows on the freeway that would not be a good thing!". So, I waved good bye to my trusty transportation for the kids and me and said hello to the bikes, jogging stroller, and my running shoes!
Tuesday morning, we get up and get out. I'm still sore from Sunday but I can do this!! It's not so bad, the air is cool while the sun is bright, I have my trusty ipod on with some upbeat music to push me right along. Okay, yes I did walk a little but hey, it's not like I've been running a lot lately!!
We all make it to school in plenty of time for me to help Jr. put some gel in his hair to spike it after wearing his bike helmet and put Mom Jr.'s hair in a pony as her friends watch on waiting to walk off with her.
D handed over his safety gear after locking up his bike and walked off to class, and little J, well he was just fine eating his dry cereal in a baggie with his water right next to him..
On the way home I run/walk again. We come in and I start to pick up a little and start to get ready to take the truck in for new tires. Ugh, walking up the stairs is starting to get a little hard, the soreness I had before was light but now my knee is hurting and I can feel the burn in my thighs. We get ready and get in the truck that I'm a little hesitant about driving anywhere! I don't like driving on bald tires let alone with a nail stuck in one of them. I strap J in nice and tight and proceed to drive slowly. You know how you would normally get stuck behind that one person who is going maybe 20 mph on a 35 mph....well, that was me.
See, in my mind I thought okay, if I drive slowly and very carefully maybe my chances of it popping are less, I won't hit any bumps on the rode quickly therefore the truck won't hit hard. Besides it's mid morning on a week day in a mostly residential area (thank goodness, the place I was going to wasn't in the middle of the town but more out on the side). People driving around at that time during the week in this area are either elderly or stay at home parents, and the occasional high school or college student.
J and I cautiously pull into the parking lot of the tire shop and I breathe a sigh of relief, whoooh!
Go in, of course they don't have the tires I need on hand, they'd have to be ordered...which would mean more running/bike riding.............now first of all, our weather is heating up the rest of the week, second of all the soreness was stepping up a level, not to mention Squiggly would be joining in on the ride and as light as she is it would definitely not be good for her.
"How did I know you were going to say that?" "Let me call my husband and see what he wants to do"..
Turns out they had some there that were comparable to what he wanted. "We'll take them!".
J and I walk to the Dollar Store to waste some time. We come out spending
$8.00 on 2 Dora bowls, 3 boxes a character sandwich baggies, 1 box of snack baggies, a Diet Dr. Pepper for me, and a fire fighter hat for J. "Mama I need dat hat cause when I gow up I gonna be a fiwe fighter" "Okay, which one, the red one or yellow?" "mmmm, I like the wed one""Thank you Mama!".
We walk back to the tire shop and now that J has on his fire fighter hat he feels empowered to put his hand out to cars passing by "Top!! I'm a fiwe fighter!!" He was happy as can be with that hat!
We're just in time, tires on, trucks done, and now it's safe!!
We make it back home just in time to have lunch. By now I feel like I'm so sore I'm starting to walk funny, not good...
Time to go, back in the stroller, off to pick them up at school. I run partially again, feeling a little more energetic now that I ate. We get there and turn around to come back home. We take the bike path just because I don't have to worry about crossing streets or having the kids ride on the side of the street because people are walking on the sidewalk.
We get on the path, it's hot, the breeze is gone, and they just re-did the bike path with what looks like black tar...
Ugh, J is asleep, I am trying to run, I'm hot and tired, I even try to walk fast but I just felt like I wasn't walking fast enough.
Eventually we make it home, kids start their homework, I jump on the computer to get the paperwork needed to pass out at our soccer practice...
Get to practice, talk to the parents, pass out papers, keep an eye on the boys........
Get home, put dinner in the oven, get the kids in the shower, feed them, have them read and then to bed, start cleaning up the kitchen just enough so that the counters are cleaned off, make lunch for Daddy, and prepare the kids water bottles for the next day of school.......
Ugh, never ending, I take my sore self up the stairs to bed knowing there is still so much for me to do, paperwork needed for our boys soccer team, finishing cleaning up in the kitchen, toys that need to be picked up, clothes that need to folded that are in the dryer..............on and on and on.
The days over, time to rest, what isn't done today can be taken care of tomorrow.
Wednesday isn't any easier, Squiggly shows up with a cold so my attention is fully on her, dishes stay where they are, toys remain scattered around plus the new ones J has decided to take out, Mom Jr. starts dance after school...
Again night is here another busy day gone, everyone is finally asleep...................until tomorrow where we'll begin all over again.
Just a Mom............................
Monday, September 7, 2009
Run!!
That's how I started my Sunday late morning...after a late night of rockin' out playing Rock Band and Guitar Hero the kids were ready to go for a bike ride...
I thought well, since J can't ride a bike maybe I'll try to keep him home. Just as the thought was sounding really good here comes J, "Mama what we gonna do today?". "I ready to go play!". His cute little face with a big smile and of course he dressed himself the only way he is known for- backwards! Shirt backwards and shorts backwards. I knew right then my plan just fell apart. How could I keep him home? He asks all the time to go feed the duckies at the college.
Okay, suck it up lady!! Quit being lazy, (you know, like I'm laying around the house all day eating bon bons!) time to get myself in running mode, because you know that's what I'm doing as I push J and everything else I need to take for the kids.
So, after we all get ready to go, tires get tested and filled with air by Daddy, we are off!! Sunblock is put on everyone, i pod is playing, go!!!
We get to the college, it's perfect, sunny with a nice breeze, J is babbling but I am only listening to the music that is coming out of my ipod directly into my ears!
We run around the college campus, around the pond, over the bridges and then we make it to our usual spot that we stop at each time we go out on this family trip.
The kids get off their bikes, J gets out of the stroller, they pull out the frisbee and football. I sit on the bench with my water and keep an eye on my kiddies.
Oh, what a nice day, I sit and watch Jr. and D learn to throw the frisbee with their Dad, it reminds me of when it was just me and him, no kids, throwing the frisbee at the park next to the house we were renting....
I'd get up and go play but seeing as I just ran, I think I'll just sit and enjoy the breeze and watch for now.
My little J always thinking about his Mom, comes over and brings me a flower he picked. "Here Mama I picked this fo you" "I just love my Mama". Mom Jr. sits for a while "Mom aren't you hot sitting in the sun?" "No, there's such a nice breeze it doesn't feel hot".
Mom Jr., Jr., and D decide to get on their bikes and ride around where we are. They found this little hill to ride up and down on. They would ride down the hill and we could here "weeee!!". They thought it was the best thing. Daddy said "you could tell they don't get out often, I use to ride all over when I was little". Jr. came riding over (of course to his Dad, he loves to be with his Dad) "Dad, you have to come try this, we're riding down that hill, it's so fun!!!" "Go ahead, I've done it before, just watch out for people".
After we rested and of course had a snack (I know better than to leave the house with out granola bars or fruit, their favorite treat) we continued on...
We made our way to the pond with a bridge where we normally would feed the ducks. This time we noticed there was a sign saying not to feed the ducks. Here I brought a lot of bread and now we couldn't do it. J was so disappointed, that's his favorite thing to do. Instead we went to the middle of the bridge and watched the ducks, saw tad poles, and turtles.
By now I'm ready to get home, it's getting warm, I ran a lot already and still had to make it home with a sad J.
Daddy and the other 3 rode around to see the new sports area they made while J and I made our way out of the campus. J and I start to cross the street which is a big street divided by an island. We are on the island as the kids and Daddy are waiting to cross. They're standing there, and I'm wondering why they haven't crossed...of course I don't know what they are saying because I have my ipod on. I take one out "what are you doing? there's no cars" "Is that a police car over there?" "what?" "the kids and I will go around, we don't want to get a ticket". Great, I'm in the middle I have no choice but to continue...
So I cross and then yes, I was tired, but now I'm starting to panic "was that a policeman? Is he coming this way? Did he see me? Run!! Run home!"
Yes, I was tired, but I sprinted home, nothing like a good scare to make me move!!
I make it home, the kids and Daddy get home, I take a shower, make lunch and then rest.
Wow, my skin feels warm, I look in the mirror, and um, yes, I made sure everyone had sunblock on but um, forgot about me...
Lovely not only do I feel like a tomato now I match it!! Lucky for the good skin that I have thanks to my heritage it now has turned brown....works for me!!
Legs are a bit tight, a little sore, arms too from trying to turn the jogging stroller.
The boys and their Dad watched Rambo 3. Such a boy/dad bonding moment, you can just see the glow their Dad has as he sits, watches and completely enjoys the bonding experience between him and his boys......
Mom Jr. and I went to our rooms, watched our own fun movies as we had snacks and J, he and his "friends" enjoyed their shows. We all relaxed the rest of the afternoon away..
It was a great Sunday..........................
Just a Mom enjoying the little things with her family..........................
I thought well, since J can't ride a bike maybe I'll try to keep him home. Just as the thought was sounding really good here comes J, "Mama what we gonna do today?". "I ready to go play!". His cute little face with a big smile and of course he dressed himself the only way he is known for- backwards! Shirt backwards and shorts backwards. I knew right then my plan just fell apart. How could I keep him home? He asks all the time to go feed the duckies at the college.
Okay, suck it up lady!! Quit being lazy, (you know, like I'm laying around the house all day eating bon bons!) time to get myself in running mode, because you know that's what I'm doing as I push J and everything else I need to take for the kids.
So, after we all get ready to go, tires get tested and filled with air by Daddy, we are off!! Sunblock is put on everyone, i pod is playing, go!!!
We get to the college, it's perfect, sunny with a nice breeze, J is babbling but I am only listening to the music that is coming out of my ipod directly into my ears!
We run around the college campus, around the pond, over the bridges and then we make it to our usual spot that we stop at each time we go out on this family trip.
The kids get off their bikes, J gets out of the stroller, they pull out the frisbee and football. I sit on the bench with my water and keep an eye on my kiddies.
Oh, what a nice day, I sit and watch Jr. and D learn to throw the frisbee with their Dad, it reminds me of when it was just me and him, no kids, throwing the frisbee at the park next to the house we were renting....
I'd get up and go play but seeing as I just ran, I think I'll just sit and enjoy the breeze and watch for now.
My little J always thinking about his Mom, comes over and brings me a flower he picked. "Here Mama I picked this fo you" "I just love my Mama". Mom Jr. sits for a while "Mom aren't you hot sitting in the sun?" "No, there's such a nice breeze it doesn't feel hot".
Mom Jr., Jr., and D decide to get on their bikes and ride around where we are. They found this little hill to ride up and down on. They would ride down the hill and we could here "weeee!!". They thought it was the best thing. Daddy said "you could tell they don't get out often, I use to ride all over when I was little". Jr. came riding over (of course to his Dad, he loves to be with his Dad) "Dad, you have to come try this, we're riding down that hill, it's so fun!!!" "Go ahead, I've done it before, just watch out for people".
After we rested and of course had a snack (I know better than to leave the house with out granola bars or fruit, their favorite treat) we continued on...
We made our way to the pond with a bridge where we normally would feed the ducks. This time we noticed there was a sign saying not to feed the ducks. Here I brought a lot of bread and now we couldn't do it. J was so disappointed, that's his favorite thing to do. Instead we went to the middle of the bridge and watched the ducks, saw tad poles, and turtles.
By now I'm ready to get home, it's getting warm, I ran a lot already and still had to make it home with a sad J.
Daddy and the other 3 rode around to see the new sports area they made while J and I made our way out of the campus. J and I start to cross the street which is a big street divided by an island. We are on the island as the kids and Daddy are waiting to cross. They're standing there, and I'm wondering why they haven't crossed...of course I don't know what they are saying because I have my ipod on. I take one out "what are you doing? there's no cars" "Is that a police car over there?" "what?" "the kids and I will go around, we don't want to get a ticket". Great, I'm in the middle I have no choice but to continue...
So I cross and then yes, I was tired, but now I'm starting to panic "was that a policeman? Is he coming this way? Did he see me? Run!! Run home!"
Yes, I was tired, but I sprinted home, nothing like a good scare to make me move!!
I make it home, the kids and Daddy get home, I take a shower, make lunch and then rest.
Wow, my skin feels warm, I look in the mirror, and um, yes, I made sure everyone had sunblock on but um, forgot about me...
Lovely not only do I feel like a tomato now I match it!! Lucky for the good skin that I have thanks to my heritage it now has turned brown....works for me!!
Legs are a bit tight, a little sore, arms too from trying to turn the jogging stroller.
The boys and their Dad watched Rambo 3. Such a boy/dad bonding moment, you can just see the glow their Dad has as he sits, watches and completely enjoys the bonding experience between him and his boys......
Mom Jr. and I went to our rooms, watched our own fun movies as we had snacks and J, he and his "friends" enjoyed their shows. We all relaxed the rest of the afternoon away..
It was a great Sunday..........................
Just a Mom enjoying the little things with her family..........................
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Saturday, Saturday...
Brain, remember that....don't wake up, sleep, sleep, sleep......no one is off to school, no one is on their way to be taken care of....no one is going to work.....SLEEP!!!!
Aaah, forget it, go ahead get up, can't sleep, it's 6:00 in the morning, everyone else is still asleep, might as well get up, make coffee, start the never ending laundry, and at least sit and watch the morning news or whatever is usually on at that time during the weekend...
Funny how the day that I can actually sleep in I just can't. Any other day of the week where I have no choice but to get up I could totally lay there and fall back to sleep......
So I get up and take it as a sign of getting a lot done early so that I have that much more time to spend with the kids and hubby or in my room reading or watching my type of movies.
Slowly the others make their way downstairs. Eventually the boys ask to get cereal (yes, I don't have to make a big weekend breakfast!!! Well at least not today). Daddy comes down with a big smile "5 pounds down...". "Wow! That's great!!". Huh, now I can totally relate with that commercial, here we go, the husband starts to lose weight and here I am the wife still staying the same.............................SUCKS!!! TOTALLY SUCKS!!! But being the wife, mother, and person that I am I will be happy for him that he lost 5 pounds in the first week even after having ice cream (which I didn't).
Huh, that's it, I guess I just have to run everywhere I go.............
Yeah, right like that's going to happen!!! It's okay, I'll get there. Mom Jr. is doing a time line of her life at the ripe age of 10. We are going through pictures and she see's pictures of me before I had kids even pictures of me when she was in pre-school. "Wow, Mom look how skinny you were!?!" "Yes, I know, and I'm trying".
Now that Mom Jr. is noticing the difference in my weight I really need to do something...I'm trying, maybe not hard enough, maybe I just need to stay up in the morning after my husband leaves for work and do my workout then........
I don't I'll figure it out!!!
I got my shopping done for the labor day weekend, Mom Jr. and D went with me. We shopped for food items to eat during our 3 day weekend, and then stopped at the movie store. They each chose a movie and then we left.
Daddy worked in the backyard, J brought out his lawn mower and mowed the yard after Daddy finished. Mom Jr. and I prepared the shish kabobs and corn to grill and then Daddy played catch with a football with all of them.
It was great, lots of smiles, laughs, and just let any worries we all felt fall on the side.
This weekend is suppose to be the last weekend of summer although it's suppose to heat up again next week. Either way we, as a family plan to enjoy what might actually be Daddy's last holiday from work until it closes to the fullest!!
Our hearts our deep with worry but we are choosing not to let that stop us from enjoying the here ad now.
As a family we are enjoying what we have, what we are experiencing together and making the best of it all!!!
Just a Mom completely enjoying her family for exactly what it is......full of life, love, and laughter!!! Praying every other family has the same...........
Aaah, forget it, go ahead get up, can't sleep, it's 6:00 in the morning, everyone else is still asleep, might as well get up, make coffee, start the never ending laundry, and at least sit and watch the morning news or whatever is usually on at that time during the weekend...
Funny how the day that I can actually sleep in I just can't. Any other day of the week where I have no choice but to get up I could totally lay there and fall back to sleep......
So I get up and take it as a sign of getting a lot done early so that I have that much more time to spend with the kids and hubby or in my room reading or watching my type of movies.
Slowly the others make their way downstairs. Eventually the boys ask to get cereal (yes, I don't have to make a big weekend breakfast!!! Well at least not today). Daddy comes down with a big smile "5 pounds down...". "Wow! That's great!!". Huh, now I can totally relate with that commercial, here we go, the husband starts to lose weight and here I am the wife still staying the same.............................SUCKS!!! TOTALLY SUCKS!!! But being the wife, mother, and person that I am I will be happy for him that he lost 5 pounds in the first week even after having ice cream (which I didn't).
Huh, that's it, I guess I just have to run everywhere I go.............
Yeah, right like that's going to happen!!! It's okay, I'll get there. Mom Jr. is doing a time line of her life at the ripe age of 10. We are going through pictures and she see's pictures of me before I had kids even pictures of me when she was in pre-school. "Wow, Mom look how skinny you were!?!" "Yes, I know, and I'm trying".
Now that Mom Jr. is noticing the difference in my weight I really need to do something...I'm trying, maybe not hard enough, maybe I just need to stay up in the morning after my husband leaves for work and do my workout then........
I don't I'll figure it out!!!
I got my shopping done for the labor day weekend, Mom Jr. and D went with me. We shopped for food items to eat during our 3 day weekend, and then stopped at the movie store. They each chose a movie and then we left.
Daddy worked in the backyard, J brought out his lawn mower and mowed the yard after Daddy finished. Mom Jr. and I prepared the shish kabobs and corn to grill and then Daddy played catch with a football with all of them.
It was great, lots of smiles, laughs, and just let any worries we all felt fall on the side.
This weekend is suppose to be the last weekend of summer although it's suppose to heat up again next week. Either way we, as a family plan to enjoy what might actually be Daddy's last holiday from work until it closes to the fullest!!
Our hearts our deep with worry but we are choosing not to let that stop us from enjoying the here ad now.
As a family we are enjoying what we have, what we are experiencing together and making the best of it all!!!
Just a Mom completely enjoying her family for exactly what it is......full of life, love, and laughter!!! Praying every other family has the same...........
Friday, September 4, 2009
Wait, What's Today???
FRIDAY.....wow!!! Where have I been?? Hmmm, no, I wasn't sleeping (yeah right!!), on vacation?, nope, I sure don't think it was that!, relaxing? (ha, ha, ha, ha, sorry that was definitely too funny!!)
Oh, yes, now I remember!!! Kids, that's right kids, school, shopping, cleaning, soccer practice.... never mind J, he himself is enough to fill the week alone!!!
These past three days that I have been missing from my blog have been like a blur, can't wait to see how next week goes with dance starting back up.
We are in the process of getting ready for our first soccer games which will begin next weekend. At this point I am getting out the schedules to our teams, trying to get our uniforms in time to get our kids names put on their jerseys.....Practices are in full swing now, kids are excited, looking forward to their first games!!!
Meanwhile on the home front I'm continuously behind as always, are we ever caught up??? Just when I think "okay, got all the laundry done, now to put it away, oh wait, I have to leave or I have to go take care of that. It never ends, it brings the daydreams of when all I had to worry about was myself....
So now that my husbands job seems to have a closing date in the near future I am making sure to get my kids seen by their dentist and doctor. Here I am running to pick them up, take them to their dentist appointment, I was lucky enough to get all four seen at the same time.
Make it back home just in time for them to get homework done, I had already prepared dinner during the day, done (of course) some laundry, and now was getting their water bottles ready for soccer practice as I am going to drive off to pick up uniforms.
I meet them at the field and Mom Jr. is just about to play with the boys team for some extra practice. She is in position and I'm sure she's feeling a little shy just because she is the only girl playing. The ball comes to her, she misses kicking it as it slowly rolls out of bounds. I say out loud "You have to run a little faster, you could've totally stopped the ball". And in return she says "Be quiet". WAIT?!?!? WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY TO ME????
"What?!" I said as other parents are there and can hear her, which I must say she has NEVER said that to me...
Then, Daddy, the coach looks at me and says "what did she say", I told him, he looked at her and told her "your done, off the field".
She comes walking over looking more embarrassed than anything else and just sits down..
Her friend comes over and says "you're done playing?" she tells her "I'm sweaty". I interrupted "no, that's not why she's out, it's because she got in trouble".
The game ends I leave with D and J.
By the way, for that comment from Mom Jr. she did get grounded for 2 weeks, hopefully she'll understand that is definitely unacceptable!!!!
I come home and actually get to talk to my Mom who has been gone for too long (okay, really only a little over 2 weeks, but a lot has happened in those 2 weeks that normally I would've turned to her to talk to). It was like taking a deep cleansing breath when I heard her voice and her words actually coming out of her mouth rather than seeing them typed in a text message. It just really makes me realize just how important my Mom is to me and how grateful I am for having her as my Mom.
Daddy had today off, which kind of threw me off schedule. I missed my sleep interruption at 3:00 in the morning....aahhhh, just to be able to sleep. I kind of woke up and thought "it's Saturday, I don't have to get up, everyone's asleep", hmmmmm.
WAIT!!!! It's not Saturday, it 's FRIDAY, Squiggly is on her way, I still have to make breakfast, lunch, coffee, sign homework....GET UP!!!
Made my way downstairs, opened the windows to let in any type of cool air, which wasn't much.
Got busy, got everyone fed, made lunches, Squiggly showed, gave her breakfast, Daddy took the kids to school. I thought okay, now I'll have my coffee while it's actually still hot...uh-oh@! I forgot to give Jr. his cough medicine. Well, put J and Squiggly in their car seats and met Daddy at school so that Jr. can have his medicine.
Still didn't get my shower, came home, put Dora on, Squiggly was in her excersaucer, started laundry, cleaning up, oh and got some coffee but of course had to have iced coffee because it was no where near hot by now.
That's exactly how the day went, one thing after another, cleaning, feeding, napping, schedules....
Now, it's over, the day is finally done......the week is over, it really felt like a blur as fast as it went.
I am completely looking forward to a 3 day weekend, glad my Sister is back, can't wait for my Mom to return!!!
Just a Mom.............................
Oh, yes, now I remember!!! Kids, that's right kids, school, shopping, cleaning, soccer practice.... never mind J, he himself is enough to fill the week alone!!!
These past three days that I have been missing from my blog have been like a blur, can't wait to see how next week goes with dance starting back up.
We are in the process of getting ready for our first soccer games which will begin next weekend. At this point I am getting out the schedules to our teams, trying to get our uniforms in time to get our kids names put on their jerseys.....Practices are in full swing now, kids are excited, looking forward to their first games!!!
Meanwhile on the home front I'm continuously behind as always, are we ever caught up??? Just when I think "okay, got all the laundry done, now to put it away, oh wait, I have to leave or I have to go take care of that. It never ends, it brings the daydreams of when all I had to worry about was myself....
So now that my husbands job seems to have a closing date in the near future I am making sure to get my kids seen by their dentist and doctor. Here I am running to pick them up, take them to their dentist appointment, I was lucky enough to get all four seen at the same time.
Make it back home just in time for them to get homework done, I had already prepared dinner during the day, done (of course) some laundry, and now was getting their water bottles ready for soccer practice as I am going to drive off to pick up uniforms.
I meet them at the field and Mom Jr. is just about to play with the boys team for some extra practice. She is in position and I'm sure she's feeling a little shy just because she is the only girl playing. The ball comes to her, she misses kicking it as it slowly rolls out of bounds. I say out loud "You have to run a little faster, you could've totally stopped the ball". And in return she says "Be quiet". WAIT?!?!? WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY TO ME????
"What?!" I said as other parents are there and can hear her, which I must say she has NEVER said that to me...
Then, Daddy, the coach looks at me and says "what did she say", I told him, he looked at her and told her "your done, off the field".
She comes walking over looking more embarrassed than anything else and just sits down..
Her friend comes over and says "you're done playing?" she tells her "I'm sweaty". I interrupted "no, that's not why she's out, it's because she got in trouble".
The game ends I leave with D and J.
By the way, for that comment from Mom Jr. she did get grounded for 2 weeks, hopefully she'll understand that is definitely unacceptable!!!!
I come home and actually get to talk to my Mom who has been gone for too long (okay, really only a little over 2 weeks, but a lot has happened in those 2 weeks that normally I would've turned to her to talk to). It was like taking a deep cleansing breath when I heard her voice and her words actually coming out of her mouth rather than seeing them typed in a text message. It just really makes me realize just how important my Mom is to me and how grateful I am for having her as my Mom.
Daddy had today off, which kind of threw me off schedule. I missed my sleep interruption at 3:00 in the morning....aahhhh, just to be able to sleep. I kind of woke up and thought "it's Saturday, I don't have to get up, everyone's asleep", hmmmmm.
WAIT!!!! It's not Saturday, it 's FRIDAY, Squiggly is on her way, I still have to make breakfast, lunch, coffee, sign homework....GET UP!!!
Made my way downstairs, opened the windows to let in any type of cool air, which wasn't much.
Got busy, got everyone fed, made lunches, Squiggly showed, gave her breakfast, Daddy took the kids to school. I thought okay, now I'll have my coffee while it's actually still hot...uh-oh@! I forgot to give Jr. his cough medicine. Well, put J and Squiggly in their car seats and met Daddy at school so that Jr. can have his medicine.
Still didn't get my shower, came home, put Dora on, Squiggly was in her excersaucer, started laundry, cleaning up, oh and got some coffee but of course had to have iced coffee because it was no where near hot by now.
That's exactly how the day went, one thing after another, cleaning, feeding, napping, schedules....
Now, it's over, the day is finally done......the week is over, it really felt like a blur as fast as it went.
I am completely looking forward to a 3 day weekend, glad my Sister is back, can't wait for my Mom to return!!!
Just a Mom.............................
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Tuesday, Snooze-day
not for me! You know sometimes it's hard to get back to sleep once I've gotten up to walk my Husband out at 3:30 in the morning...much like this morning, there goes my mind, hmm, what should I make for dinner today (I know, I know it's not even breakfast and I'm already wondering about dinner, I'm telling you it's all about having a plan for me!). I already knew what I was making the kids for lunch for school, see that's all planned out ahead of time, before the week even begins I already know what they are going to have everyday. Breakfast, that too has a certain menu each school day, hey that's the only way to go, no wondering, no deciding, it's all done, what they don't have today, they might have tomorrow so again no complaints here!!
Okay mind, take a break, go to sleep for at least 3 to 3 1/2 hours...well, after the tossing and turning and trying hard not to think I finally dose off, what time? who knows, all I do know is that I was sleeping, even dreaming (aaahh, finally nice and comfy). Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep!! Wait, what, what's that noise?!?! No, she didn't!! Ms. Mom Jr. set her alarm!!! Well, I'm not getting up, Squiggly isn't coming today I still have 30 more minutes......well now, wouldn't you know I CAN'T FALL BACK TO SLEEP!!!! Fine, I'll get up and sit on the couch drinking my luke warm coffee. As I pass Ms. Mom Jr.'s room where is she? Huh, she's cuddled up on her bed fast asleep...
I drag myself down the stairs, turn off the outside lights, both front and back, open some windows, grab a coffee cup, pour, make my way to the couch and turn on the T.V.
There I sit trying to focus, ah, who cares, I can hear what they're saying, all I'm interested in is the weather because I know that's going to be the question of the morning..........
Soon here they come, one by one, trickling down the stairs, up from their beds, now laying on the recliners watching T.V. until I get out what they're having for breakfast.
Oh, well, what do you know, gliding down the stairs is Ms. Mom Jr. making her way into the kitchen to see what I'm making for them...."oh, my alarm went off this morning, I just turned it off and went back to sleep" "really? hmmm, oh, you know I think I heard it? Oh, yup, that's right, I did and well, I couldn't go back to sleep, thanks" "hee-hee-hee""I could understand if you had some homework to catch up on or if you wanted to take a morning shower but otherwise why do you set it? If I were you I'd get as much sleep as possible, you are going to need it!"
Anyway, we go about our day, take them to school, J and I come home, I make my list and head out to the stores which I must say I am so proud of myself!! Because of the different stores (3 to be exact) I go to I couldn't believe how much I saved!! Yahoo!!! and no, I didn't go to any discount stores or stores that took things the grocery stores couldn't sell because they were almost expired or their packaging was damaged (not to say anything is wrong with any of those stores as was shown on Good Morning America).
J and I made our way home, put everything away, cleaned up a little, mowed the front yard, and made my way into the house to do a little more cleaning before I had to pick up the kids. I stopped at my computer because I was waiting for a message from my Sister and Mom who have been out of town (which I must say I'm going through withdrawals from not seeing or talking to them, yes my family is very close, thank God my Brother is still here!). Well, there she is my Sister, on line, I am chatting with her, finding out her flight, and then I get a phone call from my kids school. Uh-oh, is what goes through my mind, I don't like getting calls from school, I've had a bad call when Mom Jr. broke her arm in 1st grade and I've had accident calls when someone just wasn't fast enough to make it to the bathroom, either way, I don't like them....
Turns out Jr. isn't feeling good, his throat is very sore, the nurse lets him talk to me and I ask him if he can just wait 50 more minutes, school will be out. He says okay, but when the nurse gets back on she tells me he has tears...Ugh, I have two other kids still in class besides I said I'd bring home one of Mom Jr.'s friends who is going to soccer practice with her.
Of course in the back of my mind I'm thinking, I hope he's not upset in class, I hope he doesn't get worse, I hope it's not that virus!!!
So, here I go, run out the door sweaty from cleaning, throw on a headband, grab some cough drops and we're on our way to the school. I get there 40 minutes before they're getting out, I'm there so early I can choose any parking spot I want (which is totally unusual). I decide to park as close as I can so that my sick boy won't have to walk so far. J and I make our way to his classroom, we open the door, and there's Jr. doing his work, looking fine. "Are you okay?" "yeah, I'm okay" "well, here's your cough drop" "thanks" "we'll be sitting outside in the hot heat for the next 30 minutes!". The things we do for our kids.....
We all get home, kids do their homework, have a snack, and they're off to soccer practice. Since I don't get to go because we want to make sure Jr. is well rested for school I continue on with cleaning. It's crazy, I got a lot done while they were gone and I got the boys to finish their homework and shower, got Daddy's lunch together, and the kids drinks for school.
Tuesday, definitely not a snooze day!! On a positive note, Jr. seems better. I must say I did stock up on travel size hand sanitizer which I have made it more than clear to the kids to use it all the time!!!
Just a Mom rolling along with the days events!!!!
Okay mind, take a break, go to sleep for at least 3 to 3 1/2 hours...well, after the tossing and turning and trying hard not to think I finally dose off, what time? who knows, all I do know is that I was sleeping, even dreaming (aaahh, finally nice and comfy). Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep!! Wait, what, what's that noise?!?! No, she didn't!! Ms. Mom Jr. set her alarm!!! Well, I'm not getting up, Squiggly isn't coming today I still have 30 more minutes......well now, wouldn't you know I CAN'T FALL BACK TO SLEEP!!!! Fine, I'll get up and sit on the couch drinking my luke warm coffee. As I pass Ms. Mom Jr.'s room where is she? Huh, she's cuddled up on her bed fast asleep...
I drag myself down the stairs, turn off the outside lights, both front and back, open some windows, grab a coffee cup, pour, make my way to the couch and turn on the T.V.
There I sit trying to focus, ah, who cares, I can hear what they're saying, all I'm interested in is the weather because I know that's going to be the question of the morning..........
Soon here they come, one by one, trickling down the stairs, up from their beds, now laying on the recliners watching T.V. until I get out what they're having for breakfast.
Oh, well, what do you know, gliding down the stairs is Ms. Mom Jr. making her way into the kitchen to see what I'm making for them...."oh, my alarm went off this morning, I just turned it off and went back to sleep" "really? hmmm, oh, you know I think I heard it? Oh, yup, that's right, I did and well, I couldn't go back to sleep, thanks" "hee-hee-hee""I could understand if you had some homework to catch up on or if you wanted to take a morning shower but otherwise why do you set it? If I were you I'd get as much sleep as possible, you are going to need it!"
Anyway, we go about our day, take them to school, J and I come home, I make my list and head out to the stores which I must say I am so proud of myself!! Because of the different stores (3 to be exact) I go to I couldn't believe how much I saved!! Yahoo!!! and no, I didn't go to any discount stores or stores that took things the grocery stores couldn't sell because they were almost expired or their packaging was damaged (not to say anything is wrong with any of those stores as was shown on Good Morning America).
J and I made our way home, put everything away, cleaned up a little, mowed the front yard, and made my way into the house to do a little more cleaning before I had to pick up the kids. I stopped at my computer because I was waiting for a message from my Sister and Mom who have been out of town (which I must say I'm going through withdrawals from not seeing or talking to them, yes my family is very close, thank God my Brother is still here!). Well, there she is my Sister, on line, I am chatting with her, finding out her flight, and then I get a phone call from my kids school. Uh-oh, is what goes through my mind, I don't like getting calls from school, I've had a bad call when Mom Jr. broke her arm in 1st grade and I've had accident calls when someone just wasn't fast enough to make it to the bathroom, either way, I don't like them....
Turns out Jr. isn't feeling good, his throat is very sore, the nurse lets him talk to me and I ask him if he can just wait 50 more minutes, school will be out. He says okay, but when the nurse gets back on she tells me he has tears...Ugh, I have two other kids still in class besides I said I'd bring home one of Mom Jr.'s friends who is going to soccer practice with her.
Of course in the back of my mind I'm thinking, I hope he's not upset in class, I hope he doesn't get worse, I hope it's not that virus!!!
So, here I go, run out the door sweaty from cleaning, throw on a headband, grab some cough drops and we're on our way to the school. I get there 40 minutes before they're getting out, I'm there so early I can choose any parking spot I want (which is totally unusual). I decide to park as close as I can so that my sick boy won't have to walk so far. J and I make our way to his classroom, we open the door, and there's Jr. doing his work, looking fine. "Are you okay?" "yeah, I'm okay" "well, here's your cough drop" "thanks" "we'll be sitting outside in the hot heat for the next 30 minutes!". The things we do for our kids.....
We all get home, kids do their homework, have a snack, and they're off to soccer practice. Since I don't get to go because we want to make sure Jr. is well rested for school I continue on with cleaning. It's crazy, I got a lot done while they were gone and I got the boys to finish their homework and shower, got Daddy's lunch together, and the kids drinks for school.
Tuesday, definitely not a snooze day!! On a positive note, Jr. seems better. I must say I did stock up on travel size hand sanitizer which I have made it more than clear to the kids to use it all the time!!!
Just a Mom rolling along with the days events!!!!
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