Back to the schedule

School is back in session from winter break, Dad goes back to work, just like that we're right back in our usual pattern.............well, mostly.
Mine, started off a little differently. Now that I know this little gadget counts all my calories burned and how many steps I take I want to make sure I have it on the minute I wake up! You know, every calorie burned and every step I take count!
So knowing I would have Squiggly today which now she has turned into a little speed racer trying to get her little legs going as fast as she can I knew if I was going to get on the treadmill I'd have to do it before she got here. Well, I figured since I get up to make coffee and walk my husband out at 3:30a.m. I might as well stay up and get my exercise in while everyone was sleeping.........
Hmmm, at the time it sounded really good, then, came this morning, the first time.........after my husband left I stood in the kitchen staring at the time on the microwave clock (see, that's exactly all our microwave is good for now a days, the time!). I was thinking to myself it's still very early, it's not like I'm going to work out for 2 1/2 hours, come on I just started! What am I going to do? I can't go back to bed because by the time I'd fall asleep I'd just have to get up to do my work out..
So, I decided to go ahead and get ready, had some hot coffee, and watched a little T.V. as I put on my socks and shoes. Now that I was feeling more awake I decided to do my work out. I got it done, took my time taking a shower, and got ready quietly since everyone was still sleeping. Hmmm, this is kind of nice, my own little peace and quiet time and look I only had to find it in the dark before the sun comes up while everyone else is sleeping. Lucky me!
The morning went on, kids got up, Little speed racer was running around, and we managed to get out the door in good time.
By late morning/early afternoon I could tell I was ready for a nap but then in my head I'm thinking "nope, no laying down even if you got the two little ones down by some miracle. That would mean no movement which would mean no calories burned or no steps taken".
See, now when I find myself sitting I feel guilty because I know that's wasted time for my results. I find myself purposely going up and down the stairs more times than needed, I get out of the car and let J and Speed Racer walk around on the grass while we're waiting for the others to get out of class just so I'm moving around myself.
So, I made it through the first full day of activities, only have 6 more months to go!!
Could this be a new trend?! Hmmm, possibly, I could definitely see the clouds clearing giving me just a glimpse of something beautiful...................

Just a Mom starting to feel strong after a very long period of feeling pretty weak

The end and the beginning...

So quickly it happens, from one minute to the next you are now in a completely new year! So, what really changed? Do I feel different? Are the issues I had last year gone?
Ugh, how I wish with a new year I would have a new start. I wouldn't have to worry about the fact that my Husband will soon be out of a job, I wouldn't have to think about how we are going to continue if he doesn't find something else, I wouldn't freak out at the possibility of trying to find a job after being out of work for almost 11 years now...you know my resume is going to look inviting against all those other applicants who have probably been working or are fresh out of college!!
Although, there is a bright side to a new year.....something feels just a little different. Is it just in my mind? Or maybe it's just that fresh clean feeling of finally clearing out all the Christmas decorations, throwing out the last of the Christmas sweets, if I see just one more red and green anything......
A new year............time for change, time to start something new, time to give us a chance to begin again. Yes, and that's where the resolutions fall in....
Resolutions- Hmmmm, well, yes, there's the famous one that's usually high on a lot of peoples lists.....get in shape, lose weight, get out of debt. Yes, I would like all of the above please...
My resolution is simply this- make myself a priority in my daily routine....
I notice that I don't notice myself because I get too swept up with my children, husband, house, etc. Well, you know, all of that will still be here, just like a new year begins everything that was happening just a minute before in the last year will still be happening in this new year.
For Christmas my Mom got me the Bodybugg. I have come to realize not a lot of people know what it is. I do, because I've seen it on a show that I seem to get inspired with but end up just sitting and watching it rather than doing it for myself. It is a band that you wear on your arm that tracks how many calories you are burning all day. At the end of the day you plug it into your computer, go to the website and this little device downloads all the data it collected throughout the day. You enter what you ate and then it graphs it all for you. It tells you how many calories you burned, how many you were suppose to burn and how many you ate. Either you'll exceed your amount (which for my first day I did. Yahoo!!!) or you'll need to burn more to meet your goal for the day. It's really neat, I like it for me, I'm one who wants to exceed so if I can see what I've done for the day I feel just a little stronger to not want that sweet little something that really I don't need.
So, I'm on my way, I've started a new journey for myself, it's the first day, was a little nervous about the outcome but was very pleased with what I saw....

New Year, new feelings, new adventures, new frustrations, new love, new life, new surprises good and bad............
As we begin it we take it for what it is, we remember what happened in the last year that just ended and as we close the book we get ready to open a brand new one. Clean, clear blank pages waiting for us to fill up.

Happy New Year to all that have stumbled across my writings, I plan to continue as I know I'll have lots to share, vent, laugh, release on future entries. Taking that deep breath in..................and out for it's just the beginning.

Just a Mom looking forward (with caution) to a new year!!