The Here and Now

Okay......so it's been how many months??? Quite a few, I know....lot's has gone on since the last time I've posted.....um let me see...summer has come and gone for the kids, my little calorie/step counter is still around me, haunting me, echoing comments to me....from in the desk drawer. My littlest has now started preschool....a HUGE step for me....or should I be saying for him???? Hmmm, I don't know who does it affect more? Well, he seemed to have handled it all too well for me...woke up in the morning, picked out the best first day of preschool shirt he could find, got dressed, ate his breakfast, brushed his teeth, and was ready to go....only an hour ahead of time!!!!
On the other hand, my daughter is now in 6th grade and she rules the school (as they said in the movie Grease). My two other boys have started their 5th and 3rd grade years.
Life has been completely crazy these last couple of months...
I was doing well with my new little calorie counter..and then.....hmmm, what was it??????....well, I don't exactly remember but it was something.....that obviously threw me off track...cause I was down 30 pounds, running like a mad women on the treadmill determined to hit the new skinny me by the time my birthday rolled around....well, somehow that all got lost in the swing of things called life..................

Once again, I, me, myself....let go......................of just that one part that was the best thing for me...I let go... I let go of it all.....I released myself from the exercise I was doing for myself everyday, I released myself from the super- healthy way of eating, I released myself from making myself a priority.
And so here I sit....gained back 20 of the 3o pounds lost, kids are back in school, my youngest is now in pre-k 2 days a week....
So, now I actually have some personal time.....just me...no one else..after 12 years...I've found myself all by my self.....
This is truly a new beginning....for ME!!!!!

May I continue to blog of the ups and downs of a stay at home Mom....who now has found herself with a couple of hours all alone........what's a woman to do???? hmmm, I'm sure I can figure it out!!!!

Just another day for Just a Mom........................