Friday, yes!!!!

So glad to see the end of this week!! Not that it changes anything but, it's over, it's been said, it's well known and now let this week lye at the end of this chapter in our lives and move on to a new one.
Don't get me wrong the helplessness feeling is still there, but now it's time to try and turn the fear into determination.
Determination to get things in order, get appointments set up and taken care of, start browsing for job opportunities for either one of us.
The kids are well aware of what is going on, do they really understand how serious this could eventually be? No and that's fine by me, they're children, for us our main concern for them is to do the very best in school, sports, and anything else they are in.
So, Mom Jr. ended up staying the night with one of her best friends, I let D choose any ice cream he wanted for dessert to have with Jr., J, and I'm sure Daddy. I want them to be happy, worry free and since they really don't get as much as most kids I will give them what I can now.
Nothing's better when you see them smile, it's like a special treat for them to have pizza, root beer, and then ice cream.
To make things just a little better, lighter, happier for them we are going to just enjoy a family weekend with barbecuing hamburgers and hot dogs, swimming in the pool and trying to let our worries and fears that are hanging heavily on our minds and hearts set aside. Let us smile and enjoy now!
We are just one family affected by the decision that was made to close the business, I'm sure there are plenty out there who feel just like we do.
Times are tough, let's just pray for a brighter future for all!!!
My little J, he must know he is the last of the bunch. This boy, always just blows my mind with the things he does. My other two boys never did the things he does. It's almost like starting all over again, like I'm new to this (and obviously I'm not!). J is my first child to have "friends" and what I mean by friends (which if you've read my previous entries you'll notice I use that phrase when it comes to him) is his imaginary friends from the shows he watches (Diego, Caillou, Dora, Boots, etc.). He'll ask me "Mama can my fiends come ova?" Sure. "otay, ding dong, they're here!". He runs around like he really has friends with him. J will play tag with his "friends"
"yo it!, ha, ha, ha, no yo, it! ha, ha,ha".
He always finds a way to make me just think "oh, yeah, no doubt in my mind you are it!" Yesterday I was going to take him on a walk in the jogging stroller, I stop to talk to a friend and we hear him start to cry, I think "oh, what did he do now?" He's standing there and then walks over to me quickly. I'm looking at him "what's wrong?" he starts stomping his feet, I look down at his legs and there are red ants crawling up his legs. I immediately start knocking them off of him (and I am totally not a bug person who would've ever think of touching any type at all). Standing above me as I'm kneeling on the grass is Mom Jr. who is giggling as he is crying from the bites he's getting from the ants. I continue to knock them off trying really hard to ignore her giggles. When I finally think I've got them off I stand up and tell her "that's not very nice, I've had a bad enough day, you better stop".
Now, that has never happened with my other 3. I think I experience more with J than I did with the others. Maybe it's because the other 3 are closer in age so they didn't really have an older sibling to learn from. All I know is J definitely makes every day for me a complete new one.
Mom Jr. still wishes for a baby sister, the other day she said "Come on Mom, why don't you have one more baby?" "No, sorry this is it!"
We are just a family going through a tough time as I'm sure there are a lot of families dealing with the same fate as ours...
Let's be thankful for our health, our strength that will ultimately prevail, our faith, our ultimate determination that will not let us just curl up and just give up. We are a family who will only grow stronger from the obstacles that are thrown in front of us.
One way or another we'll figure it out, we'll be standing tall in the end because we are a strong family who will never give up!!!

Just a Mom determined to secure her family no matter what it takes!!!