It's all about control

The end of the week is practically here and if I didn't know it by the calendar I'd know it by my energy. It just like a cycle Monday, feeling refreshed, strong, and slowly from there it starts to disappear (okay, maybe it's intensified by my nagging PMS). With this heat it sure doesn't help either, I go to bed it doesn't feel so bad (that's cause the a/c is going strong), by the time I get up to get the coffee for hubby the a/c is off and the house just feels okay, I open the front door and there's the reason the a/c is off it's just about the same temperature outside at 3:45a.m. as it is in the house about 82 degrees.
I wake up again around 6:45a.m. to the screams of "J". He's upset because the boys are quietly downstairs watching T.V. and he wants to change it to his shows. I must say I think we've created a monster!! Isn't it suppose to be that with the more kids you have, the easier it gets just because you should have it mastered by now (especially me with 4). It kind of is going in the opposite direction with J. My other kids didn't watch T.V. as much as J does (granted most of the time he has it on, he's also playing and running around). Now that I think about it as I'm typing this I think it's a way for him to have control over something. He does leave the T.V. and will go outside or will play with the other 3 when invited but the minute one of the others try to come in and watch something he comes running over there and starts crying because he wants to watch his shows. Back to this morning, J comes back upstairs with tears streaming down his face tapping me "Mama, Mama, boys won't let me watch my shows". I just lay there for a minute as he is now just whimpering. He starts to walk back towards the stairs and I know if I let him go back down there it'll just be a repeat with one of the bigger boys coming up to tell me what I already know. I stop him and explain to him he can't watch his shows if the boys are already watching something. Again, with the tears and now his little lips are hanging down with a frown. To end the conflict and give me some time to get some caffeine in me I put his shows on in my room as I get up and make my way downstairs. I open the back door and windows to let any cool air at all in before it really heats up. I stand there for a minute, still half asleep, waiting for any cool morning air..........nothing, the only breeze I'm going to get is going to be made by the fan! No warm coffee for me, I get a glass, fill it with ice, pour the coffee in, stick a straw in there, and suck it down. I step outside trying to feel something cool, something invigorating, something that would make me feel like I am actually outside......again nothing. Well, at least it'll give me time to finish my first glass, wake up a little more while it's quiet. Here comes the boys (that dam invisible chord!!). "Are you guys done with the T.V.?", they both say "yes". After all that, the screaming, the crying, the waking me up, they turn it off!?!?! Why didn't they just let J watch his shows and save all the drama for at least later on in the day? Control, it's all about control!
Well, the day has officially started, they all had breakfast, they all went to play in the back and I'm starting my 3rd glass of iced coffee. Soon we'll be off to Costco and then home to catch up on the cleaning and picking up around here. With Squiggly starting to crawl the kids now have a mission to get all little things up and off the floor. I give it about a week and Squiggly will be exploring anything she can get to.

Just a Mom getting through another hot summer week.......